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Kazarine Lynn — Fri, 09 Apr 2010 23:49:37 +0000

So this is what I've been up to in Haitus.

Underland. I like that spelling better. I'm a plane jumper, and that is a plane I've created since I was young. It works. Friends, teachers, adventures, etc.. in a very practical, particular way. Except that I'm not supposed to be back yet. Too soon, too fast, and it's giving me whiplash. So tonight we do this just one more time... and not returning until I'm finished. Lanai is my trusted bookmark, a comrade to all friends. My sister approves, and that is enough for me. I want to want to stay here, alive. So I go, to live.

Anyhow, Kaz says Ciao till the lesson is complete. Lanai steps in again on The Morrow. Trust me. This took a lot of careful planning. Love.

-K

Talking to iGod

Wilhelm von Langendorf — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 02:17:15 +0000

Me:
God, wll my genital wards ever go away?
God:
I am a Christian.
Me:
Well, good for you..
God:
How about that. That sounds sarcastic.
Me:
It does?
God:
How often?
Me:
Roughly three times a day if you must know..
God:
Or what?
Me:
Or my nuts explode, or at least that's what the voices tell me. What should I do, God?
God:
Where did you get your nuts explode or at least that is what the voices tell you? Are you asking me for advice?
Me:
Well, that's your "thing", right, give advice?
God:
Interesting. It is only one of my thing right give advice.

Have your own deep conversation with iGod here: http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

This Ain't Wonderland, Alice.

Th13teen™ — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 03:01:34 +0000

The world, our universe, the laws of our physics, the nature of our understanding, the madness of our unreality falls short of logic and rationality. An infinity of atoms trapped in the spacetime continuum racing back and forth in a maelstrom. It's a strange place to be.

Our brains interpret that we are in a three dimensional world, only because it is not aware of the atoms in between, the ones connecting us to everything else. The ones we see, such as my fingers hitting each key as I type, to the ones we cant, such as the air entering my body, powering the fingers, the atoms of the air being exhaled by green ones, the atoms it pulls from the great rock, the rock which protects us from the atoms of the vacuum, the vacuum that protects us from the hurricane we find ourselves just a breeze in.

Every atom connects to another, reacting to the dictations of it's complete opposite. Such as sand in an hour glass, each side can be empty of sand and each side can be full of sand, but it can not be both. But because one side is not filled with sand, does not make it the other empty, just empty of sand.

We are no different, we are one with the universe, that makes it ours. We are not strangers to one another, just strange to one another. We are all still just atoms. And when we no longer breathe, when we no longer exist, the atoms which make us will continue on. Farther down the rabbit hole.

Little sense this makes, as I said, reality is not logical nor rational. Neither matter. Because both are just atoms. Which makes it ours.

This Ain't Wonderland, Alice. by ~Sinner-by-Design on deviant ART

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see." - Lewis Carroll

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My attempt at blogging: solutions

Wilhelm von Langendorf — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 17:20:14 +0000

Isn't it fascinating how, when two people are presented with the same problem, both can come up with completely different solutions?

This is the situation: I have a small shaving mirror in my shower cabin. I find it rather time-effective to shower and shave at the same time. However, every time I exhale, the little mirror fogs up, and I can't see anything.

My solution:

After careful consolidation, I decided to take a step back to see the broader scheme: why do I shave? is it for my pleasure, or for others? I like having a beard.

So I stop shaving. The mirror fogging up is no longer an issue.

My colleague's solution:

Stop exhaling.

Fill In The Hole Where Fear Used To Be

Kazarine Lynn — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 01:05:59 +0000

its been this and that, as usual. she wants to be the one that knows me the best. im too afraid of everything, but especially that i might weigh down her light with my dark. she doubts that possibility. but i think that's the good thing. well, i suppose time will tell what'll happen. i love her to death.

mmmm, coffee. good for the nerves. :D

i finally found enough source to shut everything out of my head. now there is a space for peace and quiet. i love it.

self expression is such a funny thing. i believe ive been doing a relatively good job so far.. i think. well, when it comes down to creation, letting go of inhibitions can feel so freeing. its that "YES" moment. i want to indulge that as much as possible, and not worry about everything else i've been worrying about. so, indulging i shall go!

mkay, i should get to sewing. i leave you all with love and good thoughts!

love! <3

My new life goal.

Th13teen™ — Fri, 12 Feb 2010 04:55:09 +0000

"The future"

This term created such creativity once upon a time. Entering 2010, we seem to have reached a stagnant pool of fail in the technology department. Rather than making new inventions, we waste our time reinventing the old technology.

Making smaller computers rather than creating a quantum computer, new phones with more apps instead of teleporters, and faster cars with bluetooth rather than space shuttles with huge fucking lasers.

I don't like stagnant, I want what comes next. I want to see the world of my grandchildrens' children. A want that seemingly is implausible.

But not. Click link:

http://www.suspendedinc.com/

That's right. Suspended Animation. My new life goal is to die rich enough to go through cryopreservation, staying in cryostasis until stem cell technology has become "modern medicine" and my vital organs can be replaced at a corner pharmacy. Then I will come back, and live for fucking ever. And finally see one of my two dreams.

1) To see the end of the world.

Or.

2) To lift off this rock on my chariot of fire, headed for Alpha Centauri, to drink some alien booze.

Gonna go get a brain-freeze now.

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You're Dressing It Up and I'm Taking It Off In The Name Of Innocence.

Kazarine Lynn — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 00:40:39 +0000

Interesting thing: Suddenly I have to write out the Wiccan Rede and the Eightfold Path (plus the Four Truths).. then do some yoga-stretching, and meditating. The thoughts I had were recapping, mostly, but then I stumbled upon something emmense to me: Nothing plus Everything makes the Creatable (this plane has more dimensions than I thought). But this creatable needs direction- a consiousness. What then makes up consiousness? Tricky question. God, I wish I knew enough math to put some figures up... I'd be like Sheldon trying to figure out the formula to Friendship. LOL.

Here's something else though: Does Gardenian (for a default path) Wicca clash with Buddhism? Because Magic is about Mastering the Self. Buddhism holds that there is no Self. However, Magic deals mainly in the creative consious, making change in one's world using will and unconsious connectivity- and Buddhism is freedom from what is learned perception and from holding material worth in a plane that never stops changing, being destroyed and made different at every level. From this point of view, Magic and Buddhism could be well conjoined in effort to constantly better the consiousness and reach different points of enlightenment... Magic being the action and Buddhism the path the mind travels to control the action. ...This all may sound sketchy... it honestly sounds like loose thoughtwork to me. I suppose I can write it down at a later time.

On the Front: After pleading insanity, I came around to realize again the physical plane in front of me. After some study, I've been practicing being okay and letting go of everything I'm trying to hold on to. It's difficult. But I'm doing it. I know I am a lot better already for it.

Anyhow, more when the tide comes in. Ciao <3

Hey, Life Is Pain; Become A Masochist- Then It's Not So Bad.

Kazarine Lynn — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 21:40:54 +0000

I don't even remember all of what hapened last night.

A good sleep became futile when a Shade decided to visit me. It became hot and of course then I had nightmares and an awful half-sleep experience. I kept trying to fall directly back into slumber, but was afraid to, my mind already going to dark places. I don't understand why they won't leave me the fuck alone. I tell them politely. I force them out. Or I rip them to pieces. The energy my confidence takes to do such things, keep myself safe, went out. I was done. Tired. Eventually I fell completely asleep.

And then there are these 'projections', of some people I've seen or come across irl. Sometimes I'm pretty sure there is actual communication. But most of the time they say "You know I'm not real, right?". And then I stop thinking. It used to be harmless to have my own conversations in my own head. Now I feel like I'm not even safe in there. Like my head isn't mine to begin with. I feel like I can't trust my thoughts, as if everything that comes up is a manipulation of something I've forgotten. I guess I really don't know how to be alone inside. Lanai used to be with me... and maybe I've been trying, but you can't replace Lanai.

Oi.. This is getting crazy.

You gotta shoot em in the head.

Th13teen™ — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 15:57:08 +0000

Abulia
Usually associated with damage to a cerebellar vessel, in neurology, refers to a lack of will or initiative and is one of the Disorders of Diminished Motivation or DDM. Abulia falls in the middle of the spectrum of diminished motivation, with apathy being less extreme and akinetic mutism being more extreme than abulia. A patient with abulia is unable to act or make decisions independently.

It may range in severity from subtle to overwhelming. It is also known as Blocq's disease (which also refers to abasia and astasia-abasia). Abulia was originally considered to be a disorder of the will.

I will find a way to create a device that generates an inaudible signal which when emitted, creates this disorder. Allowing me to create an army of mindless zombies that will do my bidding, such as voting every person involved with the creation of Twilight off this planet.

The mind is such a beautiful tool and an even more amazing weapon, when used in the right hands, of course.

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Didn't This Happen On That One Episode From That One TV Show About God Knows What...?

Kazarine Lynn — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 04:22:34 +0000

So. My mind is tormenting me with memories I'd rather forget. This whole morning I conversated with.. myself, I'm guessing.. and brought up all the "paranormal" shit that has happened in this lifetime. & For a stupid reason: proof of experience. I mean, I know what I fucking went through. It hit me hard. So here I was, with the mentality of both my high school confused-emo years and a 40yr old lush. This is beyond personality-layer-drifting, or barely-controllable dimension jumping. Fuck this shit. Today was static.

Nonetheless, Wy and Don saved me by bringing me along with them out to lunch. We played billiards and had lots of fun. I love those kids. <3

Ok, ok, today wasn't a total loss. Got some things done, was good and social. I am almost afraid to go back to my room for bed, but after this and checking up on TVL I'll drag my happy ass home and meditate on good things. See I only ever call someone for help if I'm absolutely convinced my life is ending. Or something. Other than that, I'm just bitching at life till I know how to change it.

-<3 Kaz

New theme coming this weekend & more games uploaded to arcade.

Rowen Windsong — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 14:23:46 +0000

The new theme has been completed by Th13teen™ on the Dev site and we will be porting over the new theme some time today. If after the theme is installed you notice any problems just drop us a line in the forums and we will look into it.

We also added in another 87 games to the Arcade Center, the Arcade Center it self has also been updated to the newest edition.

Crossing The Water. We Didn't See That Coming.

Kazarine Lynn — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 04:37:48 +0000

it happened. i drew her cards and couldnt read them, so she started reading them herself.

then i became aware and read when she was starting to fall asleep. when it was over, i was reeling. i saw this lion over my head- 'a message is coming'- she saw it too, and pointed out that the pillbug who'd joined us made a direct 'L' across the facedown card pile. i took the cards the little one sectioned off and they made a perfect 'celtic cross' spread.

she started reading while i tried to focus again. seems like hekate deems us to be fit to send a frustrated spirit onward at Harvest. there are life choices to be made at midsummer. but our choices are conducted cosmically, interestingly enough. i think i already see how this is going to turn out, and i loathe for tabitha's weeping. however, she will see what exactly makes her stronger.

i need to calm down and think. about life, about what i want to do, where i want to be. lately it seems like im just drifting.. but i know each step has a purpose, wherever i do go. if all our choices now are building our future lives... how would i want that to be? and how would i get there? tumult may have been my life thus far, but it is in that risking that i learned to ride the tempestuous waves, and to navigate them. nothing will be done unless i risk and go out there and do it. nothing will grow unless i plow and till and sow and nurture and water. it seems that the flow of life is amazingly particular. if you do not ask, then you do not recieve. if you do not look, you will not find. if you do not knock, the door will not be opened.

anyhow, now im ranting.

personal note:
a crow's heart,
a cow's hide,
horns,
jewels are set on top of them.
that's all i can remember from that one card. the one where we travel in other dreams.

be well, all. goodnight.

Site Update 01-19-10

Rowen Windsong — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 17:26:24 +0000

Updated the forums to give members more areas of topics to converse in. This is by far not done, we will be adding some more forums soon and will also be adding descriptions and ground rules for each of the forums.

Work has also begun on the final theme for Occult Space, over the coming weeks you might catch glimpses of it here and there as we test it out on the main site before turning it on for everyone.

Updated the blog section and video section with some new categories to better manage the video content, also updated the music section with some more genres.

Also coming to the site in the next week or two is a full fledged arcade with a few thousand games for everyone's enjoyment. More will be posted on this as we get closer to making this new feature public.

That's all for now, as usual keep reporting bugs and glitches in the forum so we can get the site ready for the general public and grand opening.

Chatroom Updated

Rowen Windsong — Mon, 11 Jan 2010 12:40:03 +0000

Chatroom has been updated and members can now share photo's with other members in the chatroom privately or right in the chatroom it self for all members of the chatroom to view.

New Chatroom Online

Rowen Windsong — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 22:36:26 +0000

The new chatroom is online, members can create there own chatrooms as well as play games right in the chatroom. We will be adding the ability to share photo's (gif and jpeg) both publicly and in private chat some time tonight or tomorrow.

The chatroom can be access to your right where the keyboard with the blue hands are located, click the pic and it will open up the chatroom in a new page so you can continue to surf out website and others without interference.